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the remedy: blasting depressing music
for the next few days, i listened to depressing spotify music,
it was arguably the best and only remedy that helped.
friends who caught on tried to solve my problem for me,
but didn’t realize that’s not what i wanted, or never did, really.
felt like stabs to my heart, each one sinking deeper,
even though I know they care about me, want the best for me.
a solution? i don’t want a solution…
but maybe if you let me suffer for a bit longer, i’d come to my senses.
the only problem was that i wasn’t suffering…
i was practically emotionless or not happy but not sad.
my arm came to my eye and wiped at it, but what my brain failed to realize
was that my eyes were completely dry, they didn’t need any wiping.
my airpods in, i turned up the volume once again, until the sounds
of my parents talking downstairs has been completely drowned out
continuing where i had left off, the lines went like:
“if you ever get lost, lost,
i’ll be there…i’ll be there waiting”
– lost by levent geigner
Sophia Xia